Weird Ass Dreams

I don't know if its a product of mental illness, or the medications I'm on, or if I'm seeing into some third dimension, but my dreams are usually pretty crazy and I have no real reason why.

For example: Last night I dreamed I joined a group of Satanists that met in a local church where the preacher held satanic rituals that involved drinking blood and playing dominoes. I'm not even kidding. I have no idea. I could go on and on about how wild some of my stuff is. This one was just the most recent.

So I have to wonder, do these things have meaning, or is it just our psyche playing around inside our heads? I like to think there is some meaning to it. Maybe not prophetic, but something is trying to tell us something. I guess that comes down to my pagan, woo woo ideas sometimes. I know a lot of times I see weird shapes and eyes on strange things, which is why most of my drawings have eyes on them.

When I was on Seroquel, that stuff gave me insane dreams Very real and vivid. There were times I'd have a dream I remember something within the dream but it never actually happened. I was becoming convinced there was alternate realities out there and maybe there are.

I usually like sleeping because I never know what weird shit my mind is gonna conjure and most of the time reality is much worse. I won't go into the dream I had about Trump awhile back, but it was horrid, and just plain gross.

Some of them are fun and whimsical, but usually they are dark and twisted and strange. I still enjoy them in an odd way. It gives me ideas for art, and its just more entertaining than lying in darkness for eight hours.

I talked to my therapist about some of this and he didn't really have any explanation other than dreams may mean a lot of things, but whatever it means to us is what matters. I know some people who do dream interpretation and I googled it and there are some generic meanings like animals mean something or falling means something, etc, but my dreams don't usually fall under any of these.

Once again, this blog is kinda rambly, but I found my more thought out pieces tend to not go over as well. I feel part of the draw to this page is you're just getting me unfiltered. If I research and do rough drafts, then that kinda defeats the purpose.

So anyway, I just posted this mostly because I wonder if other people with bipolar or other mental illnesses have the same weird crazy dreams. Or is it something our meds cause? I'm curious to know all of your thoughts. Drop me a comment or email if you have any experiences with strange dreams, especially a prophetic one that came true later. Sorry this blog doesn't have a lot of meat to it. Just some things that were on my mind tonight.