Tapering Off: A New Chapter in My Healing

I’ve started tapering off my medications. This is something I’ve been thinking about for a while, and after talking it through with my therapist, he gave me the green light, as long as I check in with him along the way. I’m only three days in, but already I feel a little more focused, a little more present.

This decision isn’t about rejecting help. My medications played an important role during some of the darkest times in my life. Five or six years ago, I hit a major crash. What felt like the culmination of a lifetime of unresolved trauma, buried anger, and deep self-loathing. That pain turned into destructive patterns: thrill-seeking, risk-taking, anything to distract myself from the hurt. Medication helped stabilize me, but it didn’t heal the roots of what was going on.

In the years since, I’ve been facing those roots, processing my trauma, learning healthier ways to handle anger, and slowly building compassion for myself. Now, with more stability under me, I feel ready to explore who I am without the medication.

Part of this decision is also about creativity. I want to see if stepping away from medication will open up new dimensions in my art, whether it’s the way I express emotion artistically, how I connect with others through my work, or even the clarity I bring to marketing and sharing my art with the world. Creativity has always been the thread running through my healing, and I want to give it the fullest space possible.

I don’t know exactly how this will unfold, but I’m hopeful. My goal is to eventually come off completely, and I’m committed to doing it carefully, with support, and with awareness of how I’m feeling at each step.

For now, I’m just grateful to feel this shift—to feel a little lighter, more focused, and more aligned with the future I want to create.