Dreams, Art, and Other Realities

As I've talked about in previous blogs, I'm tapering off my medications. I'm being very slow and careful about it and there are good and bad days. Things were going really smoothly for the first several weeks, but last couple days have been a battle.

Living in Reality

Last night, we went out to a Taylor Swift dance party and it was a blast. I was really tired when we got there, but once the music started playing I got real into it and had a lot of fun. I didn't drink any, I usually don't because its so hard for me to recover from. However, today I still feel like my brain got run over by a bus.

I keep falling asleep. I ate some strawberries to get some natural sugar and anti-oxidants which seemed to help a little. But I'm still in quite a mental slog. My doctor took me off the phentermine I was taking for my weight loss because it was spiking my blood pressure. I think just stopping may be part of why I was feeling so off, so I took a half a one this morning to balance things out and ease myself off of them.

Because I'd been so focused on this blog past few weeks, I've kind of neglected my art. I think some days I only have so much creative battery and the blog would eat most of it up.

Tapping into Creativity

So this morning, I was half awake after another night of strange dreams. I have really wild and lucid dreams all the time. I used to think part of it was because of my medications. Now I think its just because of where my head is at and where I am in my spiritual journey. There may even be an element of astral projection happening, but I need to look more into that stuff. I have a few books on it but haven't read real deeply yet, as I don't read as much as I used to.

So this drawing, I will be honest, I was looking at instagram and saw a few paintings with weird faces, and it inspired this one, as I'd been trying to get back into my drawing past few days. But it was like this face was just lying dormant waitng to be revealed.

Discovering New Realities

Creating this while half awake was quite something. I'd think I was done, but another detail would call out to be expressed. It felt like I was on auto pilot just dictating each line as my mind expressed it. Sometimes I feel like my art doesn't even come from me. Like, the inspirations may come from things I see and experience, but the final version comes from something beyond. Something spiritual or supernatural. I know thats a lot of woo woo, but a few years ago I couldn't even draw a stick figure.

Not that I'm a master artist, but I feel like I've come a long way in that time. I don't feel that is by accident and my art has never looked "normal" or "real". A lot of people tell me my art has this intensity and other worldliness to it you don't often see in the more realistic stuff.

As far as what the actual drawing means, I think it has to do with my dreams and projection. Each line and color is various forms of energy exending into the universe, connecting with the past and future. Each color a different dimension or plane. Maybe even different emotional states for us to explore. Yes, I do think the art is connected with other planes that we may not even know exist yet. Based on some of my dreams and how real and out there they are, I'm almost positive there are alternate universes and realities we can't even wrap our minds around.

Artists as Guides

I think this is what a lot of art really is, snapshots of other realities our minds catch glimpses of. I think when we are in liminal, dreamlike states we are more susceptible to seeing what lies beyond our own reality. I think for those of us with neurodivergence, our brains are primed to act as gateways for alternate things the Universe wants to reveal to us.

Artists are not just creators, but we are travelers, drawing and painting maps to places others may never experience in dreams or reality. This is part of being an artist and creating I'm not sure anyone can teach. I think if anything else, the key is opening your mind and spirit to allowing the universe to reveal things to you.

If you're looking for something concrete or evidence of the things I speak of, then it likely will never happen. Honestly, I think the art is the evidence. The I've seen some other worldly art where I am 100% certain the artist channeled something otherworldly. The art serves as fragments, as proof we've had experiences from other places and other planes of existence that have been revealed to us. It's the snapshot our minds have taken to show our world that people may not be able to access with logic and reason.

I'm not saying all artists feel this way or even experience this, but that a lot of us are channeling something whether we realize it or not. I'm probably biased, but I think those of us to do create and channel these types of things are more interesting, but that's just my preference.

Closing Thoughts

I often get frustrated that my art doesn't look as "good" or realistic or detailed as a lot of other artists, especially when I'm trying to sell it, thats when I get down on myself. In the end, I think art is less about what we create and more about what we uncover. Each piece is a fragment of something larger, a glimpse into places our waking minds can’t always reach. Whether it’s dream, spirit, or some alternate reality, the act of creating is a way of opening the door. Maybe that’s the role of the artist, not just to show the world what we see, but to remind it of the worlds that lie just beyond sight.

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